We're only four days into the new year and it's not going so well on my end. I sure hope things only go uphill from here.
If you've seen a picture of me on my blog, you may have taken notice that I don't smile. This is done on purpose. Due to my almost lifelong bad habit of drinking sugary soda, I have paid the price by looking like a jack-o-lantern. Some may beg to differ and say that I'm overexaggerating but that's what I see when I look in the mirror. I have two side teeth missing towards the front and it's quite noticeable when I smile or open my mouth wide.
Why I haven't done something about this, you ask? M-O-N-E-Y.....the lack of. That and I have a terrible fear of the dentist. I'd almost rather go through childbirth ten times over. The obvious answer to all this would to just suck it up and keep trekking through life with crappy teeth. That's fine and dandy, except I now have extreme pain that has been constantly radiating through the whole right side of my face. I can't even figure out which tooth it is bothering me because the whole right side hurts. It makes me want to claw my eyeballs out.
So yes, this is enough to make me get over my fear real quick. Except the money tree hasn't sprouted and I have nowhere near enough to get my teeth fixed. And by fixed, I mean that the dentist will do nothing other than pull them and I will look like I've come from hillbilly hell.
To make things even better, my husband and I are at a standstill with our marriage right now. We haven't talked to each other in almost three days. We've had our arguments, but this one is one of the worst ones we've had. And we've never went this long without having a conversation. I have a lot of thinking and praying to do with this one, as to what direction I want it to go. I won't go into detail simply because I don't want to air my dirty laundry, but I'm firm on how my feelings are about what started the argument and I won't back down from this one.
Winter weather has got me down as well. I'm not a person that deals well with the cold. I have little motivation and all I want to do is hibernate until spring.
Sorry for being a grump. Soon I'll be out of this slump. (Hopefully!) If it means anything, I do count my blessings and thank God for all He's given me. I know it could be worse; I just hope it doesn't get worse.