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If you've seen a picture of me on my blog, you may have taken notice that I don't smile. This is done on purpose. Due to my almost lifelong bad habit of drinking sugary soda, I have paid the price by looking like a jack-o-lantern. Some may beg to differ and say that I'm overexaggerating but that's what I see when I look in the mirror. I have two side teeth missing towards the front and it's quite noticeable when I smile or open my mouth wide.
Why I haven't done something about this, you ask? M-O-N-E-Y.....the lack of. That and I have a terrible fear of the dentist. I'd almost rather go through childbirth ten times over. The obvious answer to all this would to just suck it up and keep trekking through life with crappy teeth. That's fine and dandy, except I now have extreme pain that has been constantly radiating through the whole right side of my face. I can't even figure out which tooth it is bothering me because the whole right side hurts. It makes me want to claw my eyeballs out.
So yes, this is enough to make me get over my fear real quick. Except the money tree hasn't sprouted and I have nowhere near enough to get my teeth fixed. And by fixed, I mean that the dentist will do nothing other than pull them and I will look like I've come from hillbilly hell.
To make things even better, my husband and I are at a standstill with our marriage right now. We haven't talked to each other in almost three days. We've had our arguments, but this one is one of the worst ones we've had. And we've never went this long without having a conversation. I have a lot of thinking and praying to do with this one, as to what direction I want it to go. I won't go into detail simply because I don't want to air my dirty laundry, but I'm firm on how my feelings are about what started the argument and I won't back down from this one.
Winter weather has got me down as well. I'm not a person that deals well with the cold. I have little motivation and all I want to do is hibernate until spring.
Sorry for being a grump. Soon I'll be out of this slump. (Hopefully!) If it means anything, I do count my blessings and thank God for all He's given me. I know it could be worse; I just hope it doesn't get worse.
4 comments:
(((Hugs))) I know things seem to be going downhill on a bumpy road but keep on driving and soon enough it will be just smooth sailing. Everything happens for a reason, even the things that we think are devastating, there's a reason.
Pop in a good comedy on the tv and chill for a while. Take time to relax.
I'm praying for you. Seek GOD's will and let HIm take care of you.
You are not alone. I am terrified of going to the dentist because I lost my teeth due to military dentists who "did root canals" that they didn't actualy do, or put caps on them, so my teeth crushed. I can't afford to fix them, and the one time I had the money, my husband took it and spent it on an affair. Not a good time for us.
That is all behind us, but still can't do anything about the spaces and I am having pain on my left side now. Not excited about that.
You can look into dental schools. They do things on very reduced rates for training.
Oh no sweetie I hoped since the last time we talked that it may have gotten better. My prayers are with you.
I'm sorry about the teeth my husband is the same, he's are horrible and he probably needs to get them all pulled an put veneers in but hello who has that type of money?
Much love my dear, we're hear also to release too :)
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